~*DiG DeepeR BeneatH and YoU Shall FinD*~

ALIVE!!!

Sorry for the lack of updates. was acting pro by fiddling with my blog. thought of beautifying it, making it look more prettier and all but it was a horrible failure. even the chatbox and music thingy is now missing.

Anyways, a lil update about me, well nothing much has happen lately just the same old routine. but wait, i did discover something about myself that i thought i was really hopeless and useless in. i always thought i was a sport retard but this few weeks i fell more like an athlete. i was on court more often lately and discovered some unknown truths about myself and im pretty proud of it. not bad for a person like me!! lolx..

so long, till then
*toodles*

P.s. Gossip Girl's back with 2 new episodes. cant wait to watch it!! whoo-hoo.. very much excited!!

Worthwhile?!!...

The eyes that see my sin, would look me on with love and watch me rise again.
The voice that calmed the sea,would call out through the rain and calm the storm in me.
I am a flower quickly fading, here today and gone tomorrow, a wave tossed in the ocean, a vapor in the wind.
You hear me when I'm calling, You catch me when I'm falling and
You've told me who I am,
I am Yours.

Not because of who I am, but because what You've done.
Not because of what I've done, but because of who You are.

~* You light the way of my ever wondering heart*~

Letting go and letting God!!!..

Does it all have to just fade away in just a blink of an eye? Is life really that cruel that we have to suffer in torture chamber?

I look at my dear babe, and it really strike me that she is struggling through tough times. Staying alone and cry wouldn't make a turn around.
" But babe, you may loose focus and you don't feel so alive but it is time to say goodbye, these days are gone!! You can't keep holding on to this agony. We all need some relief through these hard times. "

I understand your situation but it hurts when you're suffering. Laughter is the best medicine! Therefore, you gotta move on yea? He definitely don't wanna see you in pain and he'll for sure be with you in someway or rather. Not physically, but his heart is always for you and none other!!!

-Let God sit in in this yea babe-

*closes her eyes and waltz away*

~Entering Into A New Realm~

Its high time for me to quit slacking and start anew!!! As much as i detest studying, i have no choice but to conform into this stage of life which is non-escapable! I look at myself and say " I'm really not cut out to score spectacular grades, high distinction, be a bookworm and what not!" but yet there are so many people around me expects much out of me. Thus, i'm mold in such a way that i adapt and conform into it without complaining or saying a word! And when i'm in their world, i just conveniently adapt to it with no complains at all and not to say that i dislike what they have put me in, i just happily absorb what they tell me to out of obedience and i don't happen to hate them because they've brought me into their land.

*Its like you know that you dislike where they're bringing you to but yet with an open heart and mind and willingness you've been dragged or pulled into that portal where you'll end up into their realm and not yours! and you happen to adapt to it with fullness!!* weird but its real!!

But it'll come to a stage where i'll make my stand and not allow them to drag me or pull me into their land of utopia or whatever, anymore!! I'll have to make my own decision and by that point of time, i know that i've grown much in mind and that i know what's best for me!!! No way I'm gonna do desk jobs, sit down with crossed legs in a cubicle with 3 big hindrance (dividers) surrounding you and start working from 9 to 5!!! It's really not my cuppa tea, or not even my gulp of water to keep me alive and standing!!!
So puhleeeeeeezzzzz, please don't put me in a place where i'll have to look at that dumb box screen (monitor) and exercising my hands and fingers by typing onto some plate which are full of Alphabethical buttons (keyboard). its like living from 9 to 5 behind bars..

There'll come a day or time, that i'll break free from my nutshell and prove to you what i can do that'll make a difference and even live a legacy that you and everyone else would be proud of!!

*^ Wait, watch, learn and see ^*

Inspirational but sad at the same time!!..

Entitled Happily Never After by Nicole Scherzinger really makes me stop, sit down, think and wonder about the things in life that i've gone through. After thinking about it, it sometimes enlightens me but at times it brings back unwanted memories!! This song feels very much real to life..

"I don't think I want this anymore," A
s she drops the ring to the floor.
She says to herself, "You've left before,"
"This time you will stay gone, that's for sure."
And he shattered something else
To drag her suitcase down the path,
To the driveway.
She had never gone that far.
Normally this would be
the time that she
would let him talk her out of leaving,

But this time, without crying,
as she got into her car, she said,
"No 'Happily Never After'
That just ain't for me.
Because finally,
I know
I deserve better, after all
I'll never let another teardrop fall.
" As she drove away she starts to smile,
Realized she hadn't for a while.
No destination, she drove for miles
Wondering why she stayed in such denial.
She was laughing about the way he shattered something else
To drag her suitcase down the path,
to the driveway,
she had never gone that far
Normally this would be, the time that she would let him talk her out of leaving,
but this time, without crying,
as she got into her car, she said,
"No 'Happily Never After'
That just ain't for me
Because finally,
I know
I deserve better, after all
I'll never let another teardrop fall.
" I'm done, I'm done, said I'm so done,
I'm free, I'm free, so free
Free to feel the way I feel, yeah.
She inhales a breath she'd never breathed before
Don't want no drama no more.
'Cause she says....
("I'm done, "I'm done" "I'm done", "I'm done, so done, so done") Said I'm done, I'm done, I'm done

xoxo,
~*Tina*~

Don't be afraid to apologize!!!

In conjunction with ~SaD~,

At times, silly or naive actions that you dont even know may lead to unwanted happenings. without knowing, words can just hurt or pierce someone deeply and wonder if there's any chance of forgiveness. or maybe even a 2nd chance to regain back that jovial-ness we have for one another.
Things said may not be what you wanna hear but sometimes its been implied in a wrong way. misunderstanding is the word!
It may not give pleasure to your ears but it is actually not meant for you but for the other person.
Perhaps, the actions were too bluntly exposed that it hurt you deeply, it was actually my frustration and worry that i blurt it out! worried, concerned and afraid that my performance would not be good enough. thus, it led to wanting a person with a smarter brain than me was an urge for YOU!!.
My main concern was YOU!!! and no one else. Sorry for the misunderstanding!! no bad intentions or remarks on you what-so-ever. everything was for the betterment.

SORRY BABE!!!

UnTiTLeD...

Blogging revival!.. sorry for not updating. was pretty much busy with stuff and still am. juz thought of taking a breather by updating.

well my previous blog i mentioned that there some stuff im gonna do during the short break. and yeah i managed to fulfill some. i attended the colbie caillat concert. went shopping and spent lotz of $$$. other than that, my holz was pretty much mundane!.. (feeling kinda wasted)

anyhow, the new sem has started and its gonna be a tough one for me. much of effort has to be put into my studies, revising more. at the end of the day i juz want the outcome to satisfy me.

i've been thinking alot lately on wanting to start my business but im still waiting for God's perfect timing. there's season and time for everything right?

im feeling it:-